manufactured life

do u ever think that ur lifes set out in a certain way when ur born and theres nothing u can do to change it? im beginning to think that way...

i failed my exam for the THIRD time today, and each time ive not failed it terribly, i only just failed it! i can be revising so fucking hard, get my confidence real high only for me to go in for the exam and fail it. im started to think that i cant do anything in life, i cant even talk to girls! and yeah i passed both my theory test and practical tests first time, but only cuz the theorys piss easy and it was a quiet day on the road on my driving test. i shouldnt be thinking of things that way really but i cant help it..

i had to go to work AFTER the exam, how fucking depressing. i just wanted to go home and think. ive just been so down all day. i didnt tell my parents when i booked my exam or the result of it, infact there wasnt many i actually told, i didnt want to tell a lot people cuz they say "oh you're gonna pass it this time i know you are!" and when u tell them that uve failed, it kinda feels like u've let them down and tbh its kinda embarrassing in a way as well

if life is set out that way, im gonna have a pretty miserable life. i just hope it turns around one day..

a bit deep i know but im just expressing my feelings, thats what blogs are for right..

Dazzinc's Journals

manufactured life